Just have a few tension quarrel with a friend...not that i wanna scold in the 1st place..but i was typing and i need to type out in cap and vulgar to show that i don really feel good about. Anw i hope he understand that i am not lecturig him...i am going to say sry here for the vulgar in the 1st place but as a friend then i will say out...so hope it can be understand.......

Anw just gone for a interview on a job at VTB building as a promoter with weiqi and yunting ... sian the person said mostly she will use me but need to wait 2 weeks more...but next week O lvl result is coming out le...and i am really scare about it and cannot fulfill our agreement on the job...if i do really ge into poly...then i could go for the job 100% full time...so stress .. i donno why..

Am i suffering from mental problem? i feel so problematic ..now as i am typing my tears are coming out again same as last time ..why? Jobs? studies? friends? Family? ...this holiday i just cannot hold on any longer le...plus the last stage of getting result is coming le..i feel so much peer pressure...i am really afraid of the result ....my heart have a really heavy rock which i cannot gt rid of...it weight tons..i am so sad ...so depress...no more vex like last time but more saddening then before...so sad ..sad till i donno how to write on...

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Haisss still vexed though...cos i HAVEN QUIT MY JOB!!! which i wanted to do so right now straight!!!!! ...but acutally if it wasn't my bro company and wasn't it he said he really need...acutally i wont be working and helping out ><..alright enough of my job thingy...ermm ARGH just who have Ai otsuka's "Yumekui"!!! well nvm today go a short version of the song lol better then nothing...anw zzz some how i find guildwars something wrong....as its kind of boring if its not played with friends yah? just something missing.

well few days back i am KNN de sad and vex and STRESS!!! Totally into SHIT! Three things all dashed straight at me...First, the chatlet thingy need to cancel and reorganise every thing...well nvm just reorganise its ok with me...then second... HOW am i going to think up something to tell my boss i am quiting when my broher said don say anything to drag him down as he told my boss i am working till sch reopen where i don really want it...zzz HARD WAY TO THINK! and last...about my job again...zz this i don wanna tok .. Anyway after accepting this three GREAT gifts....i go outside and seat down and due to too much stress i started to broke down and start crying...Just Too Vexed and Fan for me...well i know whose who are reading this cant really feel this but Just...haiss...nvm

well sometime really wanna know who can make me happy yah? No one for me to confide in...

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Wednesday, January 17, 2007

WAH FUCK is all i can say, knn nvr tot that working so long for this company now then kanna this kind of thing...CB! Today our company come alot of 2nd hand ps 2 and stuffs so me and jun ping sld be taking out the ps2 and organise them properly....but due to donno what wind blowing to what direction this week come alot of ps 2 and stuffs....nvm cos i am alright with works even if it is lots of works...ok then i think since there is so many then i tell jun ping to slowly do(But not that type of snails working lah) and i also did that. After finishing the 1st batch i am down with 5 more to go! and i ard spent half the office time doing it....and that is with the help of another co-worker. Ok nvm with it....there we started the 2nd batch and the co-worker went out to send goods....well its ok...like what i said alot is ok... i am willing to do....that left with me and jun ping down to do it.

After some time passes and we are still doing...someone above us came in( sld know who lah hor) he told us in a Not A Serious Tone saying "You all do faster wor...if not i cut your pay by 3 dollars ...hahas" the end....

Then we continue to do ....oh yah and also another 1.6k of ps2 is coming in today also but due to the lift faulty, the goods cant come up....but my mind think its non of our business cos we are part timer doing what we sld do..... Donno why hor the office to the warehouse door is open and put with a stopper so i tot goods are going to come in....then we go on and do our stuffs....but bloody hell...TMD a Tone like scold people one was all i heard" HEY JEREMY, FASTER DO THIS THING VERY URGENT" well he said almost something like that....and well the next sec i am FUCKING ANGRY! CB any moron heard that also know it is a tone of kan people liao loh....even jun ping also agreeded with me, i mean if he want us to work faster say it in a proper tone, the point is he did say do fast but who also know just now that line was like di siao people....
And now he suddenly rise his voice and kan us. I mean if you tell us to do faster in a proper way and in the end we did slow and you kan us....alright we sld be kanna scold....but in the 1ST PLACE WE DONNO YOU WANT US TO DO FASTER NOR DID YOU ACTUALLY TELL US IN A NICE WAY TO TELL US DO FASTER!...and that is what i am so angry about CB ...kan me for not doing faster when you din tell us its urgent...knn and the problem is among his part-timers i know we are aleast the few Top scoring one that acutally do stuffs more then any others, MORE THEN HIS NEPHEW CAN WORK! and he treat us in this way ...i can only say you stand on your relative more then you sld...CB...And i tell you one last time...PART-TIMERS WORKS FOR MONEY NOT FOR THE COMPANY!.The end

Well after all this vexing on the blog i felt much better...haiyy...but still so fk up

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Been long since i blog ...i think, now its 3.20am....wow my mood was so moody after O's lvl. Don ask me why, just feel that something is so empty inside. after chionging for the Os, though can relax...but now chionging for my work....simply no life for me...only weekend can relax but due to all of my friends working, we need to push all our funs activies to weekend...and in the end i was like 24 hrs without enough slp. But of cos i wanted more events so that i can enjoy...well that most hated part was that i guess i failed my promise with zi cai... just now free to do it, not that i don wanna do it. but well moving on with my days and awaiting for more fun activies like scuba diving all this.

Well donno what to write le...so sian signing off here

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Sunday, January 07, 2007