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i walk a lonely road
alone by myself... `
don't know where it goes...
cold and lonely... freezeing what does that mean?

feel kind of sad alone
never have this feeling before in past
is this life?
the hurt...the sadnesscan it be gone?

they have entered my life...my story...
i changed...and true i do changed.....


i am not the past weakling boy u have seen
not anymore...

now more have entered my story...
different character. different characteristic...
lots things for me to learn out there..blue sky
till then i continue move forward...


problems was starting to pour in ...
the only ways is to solve by my ownself...
i need to face the problems
i not going to run as i not alone...


friends are there for you
before the problems was solved. till then i continue move forward...


check my vital signs ;
to know im still alive
and i continue move.....

continue......
i will not stop in track...
i will not......
growing up
the ones that walks beside me too
new life to face...
sometimes i wish someone out there will find me;
`till then i continue to move...

walked out of inmaturity
lifes starting to get more and more fun...
learned how to make funsoutof anythings...
really learnt hw to make a day out of it

I was not alone anymore
not anymore...


time going by
days by days had passed...

grown up
should be independence...
life was completely diff. out there
things was changing...

mindset was changing out there
now i should be brave....

brave enough to make decision myself
brave enough to face the difficulties lies infront...

i was happy to have friends accompany me to this stage
really nice..

the flower bloom
and butterfly dances
the end of my story..
i'm Jeremy...
Thursday, August 30, 2007

Well...exams finally over for me....well strange as i am not as excited as i sld be when exams are over. Strange yet funny, not sure whether did i do it well but well i guess i tried more then half of my effort and i cant say i did put in my best as i do really slack at times! hahas

Today went out with Jw, Jeremy lew, Joon hoe, Liting and Adeline to town and we ate "fish & co" as a celebration for exams over? lol quite few of us i know lol...but anw go there again fish and chip hahas...like same as before...after that went to watch "dead slience" not bad scary but did not break the string of scary as you all know when you all watch horror movie you will be closing your eyes most of the time and you feel like not watching it at all lol...but dead slience is not bad but still i think "slient hill" is still better lol donnno why just like that show most among horrors show..

Anyway, this holiday hmm going to let my pocket burn a biggy hole as i need to buy "eye of the north" guildwars game yah... and alot more on just going out and shopping well if you know me i am acutally quite a fussy eater when i go outside which i seldom eat hawker or normal food court as i always thought that eating is human greatest pleasure! So why save it? lol just love good foods hahas. Growing fatter and fatter yah then you all will see a over 100+kg chubby and round Jeremy walking toward you and you thought which balloon was that? LOL

Nevertheless holidays are here and how i will spend it is just by working and spending night time with my beloved lappy! lol just cant go on with my life without it!

Well i guess i am moving on with my life just some here and there which i try to overcome but yet i cannot and yet i do know the reason behind why i cannot do it. Hmm maybe all humans feel the same yah? Honestly i do need some sparks for the holiday and cant just work, play, work, play...lol if not i am going to be mummifed.

Hahas guess what? I'm having mind block and i am tired....lol so i guess i wont write on le...till next time bah

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Thursday, August 30, 2007

Monday, August 27, 2007

Hmm later going to sch for ESSIT exam le....study all topics le but the tutorial not revise...haiy... i truly hope its will be easy or able for me to handle...

Completed "Onimusha dawn of deams" with my brother...the ending story is so nice or rather the whole story... but the main lead was not "jin chen wu" already ..but he did disguised himself as one of the party member name "Tenkai" ...the theme songs was both by ayumi hamasaki..."startin'" and "Rainy day" only like Rainy day song...so nice!

2 days back...celebrate early birthday for Weiqi together with Jiatian, Yunting, Huahuang and weichong...given her a surprise lol but acutally we go eat nia at bugis...hahas...

ok today write abit nia...going back to my books, after exam then i will blog again bah!

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Monday, August 27, 2007

Friday, August 24, 2007

I was totally demoralise by my C-math today....paper just started i already have mental block and alot of qns i just donno how to do... i am very very sad....Honestly...it really bring me down alot alot...
donno what is happening to me...haiyy...qns which i acutally know how to do and i write it wrongly...zzz not careless but purely i forgotten...

Anw my eye-candy was acutally sitting near me at least bring my mood alittle bah...she is somehow more pretty today although she wear like the same as before LOl...

After the exam went to amk for a coolin just for myself as i am really down... then a surver( donno spell correct mah,LOL the one who do survey) called me and wanted to meet me at hougang mall?!?! WTH? I remember i do the survey was something like do i have a saving acc.? then i said no...which basically ended all her survey qns....then she ask me where i study and handphone no. then i acutally miss a 72 bus while trying to answer all her qns...oh yah back to the meeting at hougang mall??! She said what want to tell me about saving?!?! I asked is it bank stuffs, she said no...don tell me she going to tell me how to save my money meh? lmao aiya heck lah...

Oh yah then today came out of mos burger then see my eye-candy lol then meng hua said "you yuan wu fen" same as him LOL and i came to realise one thing that she and "baojuan" or rather Bj is not a clique de? lol confused .. tot they are good sisters...hahas

now near 4 am and i am listening to very jazz song...so emo...i don want to slp so hang and keep typing....always like night life...i just loved night..Its so peaceful and quiet and able to send one into deep thinking...hmm well the feeling is just very good...donno what you all might feel but i truely like night and moons...

Hmm whats more can i write? lol not sure...so sian....talking to jordon just few mins ago and he told me got a new game MU and Maple combine de?? lol wonder if its a good game....waiting for him to send me the link hahas...hao bah hao bah i stop here le if not you all might think i am such a whinner! DANG! hahas...GOOD NITE ALL....I continue to enjoy my night! CYA

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Friday, August 24, 2007

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Exams coming!! guess what? I'm still laying around like the most carefree person in the whole wide world. Somehow i could not feel the stress coming in and sometime i wonder if it was normal as i thought to myself "Hey, just a semester exams." but oh well its a major exams for us...

I found out something from myself...topics that i can understand i understand, topic that i don understand i really don understand a single bit of it no matter how hard i stare and study it. shag...you know its not like in secondary school thereby i will be able to get a tution teacher to my house and start asking him all my doubts. Guess that this problem will only be encountered by me bah, truly think that sometime i am just a total failure..

Ytd went to gab house for a small study group and toward the night we think of having some wine and i never never would had thought that the amout of cups which i can hold up to was only 2?!?! well lol is my liver really that lousy? Just normal 2 cups mixed by gab and my face already red and head is heavy... OMG how am i going to go for social drinking next time? well guess i either train up my drinking withstand or transplant a stronger liver into me bah...

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Sunday, August 19, 2007

Friday, August 17, 2007

kaos....laptop went into coma and could not get it power up sia!! This is what happened to my lappy...i took my laptop and went into a toilet and as i use the cubicle i noticed there is a tiny table for me to put my stuffs so i place my lappy against the wall and i start peeing....then hor then hor i donno which bangla beside me go into the next cubicle and he close the door like aliens are going to have his life, he bang the door with so much force and the whole cubicle is shaking and as you all know cubicle are all connected and because my lappy was resting against the wall and from the impact of the wall shaking....my lappy fell and i got the shock of my life...i straight away cannot continue peeing and then i quicky pick it up but acutally ...what was on my mind was that it would not be that easy to spoilt so it is in my lappy pouch somemore...so i went out and wash my hand and...finally my friends tell me to take a look lah so i took it out and realised it was worst then i thought! the whole LCD cracked and my lappy become two parts and all buttons came out!

LOL joking lah! not that worst...the above result of dropping is fake de WAHAHA but indeed it did drop and a small lid did come off and i could not switch it on....wahh but i did not panic leh donno why...just sian and stress....then went home to find my warrantly card...but guess what? i could not find it....then my mum told me to find next morning...then next morning i wake up still cannot find it...then had a quarrel with my mum cos she keep saying i anyhow put my stuffs...but in fact most of my stuffs are being moved by her loh...ok lah i admit i really did not put them at a proper place but my place of storing my stuffs are limited...anw so my mum went out to work and my sis told me to wait for night and when she come back help me find....then afternoon i called han wen whether want to go fishing now but he said too late and i told him i cannot find the warrantly so he told me to call fujitsu and ask if without the card still can repair anot ... but at that time i tot they will not but to my delight they acutally said i can go down and get it fixed without the warrantly! so i rush down with lun accompany me in cab and reached henderson road...so far sia..there paid 16 to the cab uncle...then we went shopping and watch jay movie "secret"...wahh nice show seh..the love story is wonderful....then in the middle of the show the fujitsu guy call me and told me my mainboard is spoilt and the part will reach sg in 1 - 2 weeks time WAHHA i need lappy for practice for my exams de arh!! budden no choice...

On the way back home the guy called again and he said donno what it is fixed le....and i think he downgrade my software leh.... aiya donno lah can use can le..then next day my bro drove me down to get it back and also exchange his coins in bank and met adeline cousin at the counter ?!?!? lol i din know it her after she said she is adeline cousin...lol maybe she dressing too formal in bank le bah...also din know she work there....

After that i am back with my dear dear lappy! lol one day without comp is hell for me! hahas

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Friday, August 17, 2007

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Went out ytd to study but din study much >_< sian no motivation sia lol...jialat lah!!! I don wanna retake module leh...*sniff sniff*

Anyway after study that little bit with chu xiang,zi cai, feng wei and gab, we decided to go slack liao lol ...its more like a slacking outing then a study group...then at ard 6+ go eat then slack somewhere near cp LRT there and chat. Then we went to take a look at renoma stuffs....zi cai went there to buy shirt but me, feng and gab go there see the salegirl LMAO...then keep saying whether is she pretty anot lol, lame! then went back to the LRT there to to slack again then somehow donno who come up with the idea of forming a guild or a organisation LOL for single men, hahas about what it do? donno tell you all later....hmm maybe we guys should really find a serious relationship? hahas donno...

Then i found out something...that is ... I HAVE A PROBLEM READING EXPIRY DATE!!! LOL! That time i read the wrong date for my cough medi then i acutally drink a pass 1 yr expiry date medi into my stomach...lol then i go dig it out ARGH disgusting but i don wanna get even more ill...then today i see the soya bean its 2008 then pass expiry date but i tot this year 2008 then i din go drink....jialat lah think i need to see a expiry date doctor? lol donno lah...

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Sunday, August 12, 2007

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Life in poly is so busy or rather stress? Nah i am not sure just only know that projects and exams are all filling up my time slots which i cant do much to avoid them... well at least for now i think i had taken the right choice from the narrow choices of choice after O lvl....no pre-uni for me cos i know i am sure not going to handle it well...so stuck here in poly which most pea does.

I know throughly deep down in my heart that i am still now adapting well to my current life right now....no cca was something which i cannot get use to it....trying to do back community service badly...miss the times i did my community services in tri-touch and the camp, upteen of funs and memories. well anyway like what i had been telling myself.... just do what i think it is right and i am happy thats it!... Angel:"Hey Jeremy don think too much if not you are going lunatic"

Oh yeah noticed something recently or maybe long time ago just din go think about it...now alot of people are like going for eyes candies lol but mostly just really eyes candies....wonder is that the reason that lead to ageing population? hahas donno...lets wait for prof Wong to come out with the result bah =)

Been through alot of thinking on the people i had met and how are they like...well not just met or rather old friends too....some changes, some i cant adapt....reason? People grow up and so does thinking...well who don? Me too!
Had a conversion with my friend on msn saying about how to survive in poly LOL...things we met are totally diff from our normal 4 or 5 years in sec school and our daily life....last time for me was reaching home at 4+ and open computer and start playing like a nerd...now was like a active rat running outside from early morning till late...sometime even miss my house dinner...what can i do? Schoolwork more important yah?

Just some little thoughts from my pea brain...human life... intresting?

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Saturday, August 04, 2007

Friday, August 03, 2007

oooo...found a very sad video on S.H.E and how Hebe cried....so touch ...i know its acutally quite a old video but i seldom go youtube watch S.H.E so when i come across it i felt that it is so touching that it tears me up >_<



so sad must see

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Friday, August 03, 2007