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i walk a lonely road
alone by myself... `
don't know where it goes...
cold and lonely... freezeing what does that mean?

feel kind of sad alone
never have this feeling before in past
is this life?
the hurt...the sadnesscan it be gone?

they have entered my life...my story...
i changed...and true i do changed.....


i am not the past weakling boy u have seen
not anymore...

now more have entered my story...
different character. different characteristic...
lots things for me to learn out there..blue sky
till then i continue move forward...


problems was starting to pour in ...
the only ways is to solve by my ownself...
i need to face the problems
i not going to run as i not alone...


friends are there for you
before the problems was solved. till then i continue move forward...


check my vital signs ;
to know im still alive
and i continue move.....

continue......
i will not stop in track...
i will not......
growing up
the ones that walks beside me too
new life to face...
sometimes i wish someone out there will find me;
`till then i continue to move...

walked out of inmaturity
lifes starting to get more and more fun...
learned how to make funsoutof anythings...
really learnt hw to make a day out of it

I was not alone anymore
not anymore...


time going by
days by days had passed...

grown up
should be independence...
life was completely diff. out there
things was changing...

mindset was changing out there
now i should be brave....

brave enough to make decision myself
brave enough to face the difficulties lies infront...

i was happy to have friends accompany me to this stage
really nice..

the flower bloom
and butterfly dances
the end of my story..
i'm Jeremy...
Monday, July 30, 2007

well...last weekend was quite a S.H.E Fever...saturday was the mini concert and it ended okok maybe because there is no encore...but whatever it is i think that they are just way too tired as they wake up at 5am in taiwan and take a plane to sg then interview and rehearse and so on so it was quite understandable....but i got a FEAKY NB WORST situation EVER, i don wanna said too much about it...but i am REALLY annoyed by IT TOTALLY! KNN so immature sia ccb...at that time, tons of !@#% was out and i told my secondary friends why i was so annoyed by it....now i truly LEARNED my lesson, i wont do the same things again!

Anyway enough of the complain...Lets talk something about the mini concert, i meet dap,khai theng, zhao lun, jun ping and vincent at 10 and head off to eat breakfast cum lunch and went to arcade for a little fun and reached The Max Pavilion at 12 or 1+, back then the weather was getting dark and when we reached we were thinking if we could go in the hall to wait so it will be more relax but instead it was not...when we just get into the queue not even 1 sec, droplets of rain start to fall down...my gosh! So unlucky man...so i took out my brolly and tot only i got bring when we have 6 people here LOL then lun surprised us with his brolly so we 3 share one and waited in the rain~ lalala... till 3+ still raining my jean were all wet and we were sitting on the wet floor...booking spaces for adeline and her cousin and fs gang....at 6+ near 7 they told us to go in the hall and we pick the back sit as it is the only way to see the whole stage...oh yah and before i forgot!!! I saw someone who acutally look so much alike like Ai otsuka!! Man firstly sight tot she was okok but look longer she is indeed pretty lol but she is with her stead...saddness and i lost her in the middle of the crowd in the hall...nevertheless we move in...and there! They singed "Play" album except for one song and that i "bia zai kang qiao" firstly i tot they were not on the tip top form as Selina acutally zhao sia or voice run away lol when reaching high pitch and she tried to cover it but it made it worse and obvious instead ... well i guess she was too high...but later it was better and could heard that they acutally try to skip the high pitch parts when it comes...but what i really admired is acutally Hebe was singing quite alot of high pitch on that day well she normally sing high pitch but i tot she was in off form mode so din expect that so...it was nice! Next Ella!! hahas she was dam cute loh in the concert though she was suffering from a flu, she cracked alot of jokes and there is on part she almost..almost forgot to rap then she kan chiong and rap and try to remain cool like jay chow lol! dam funny sia....alot of mention lah...just fun except for the dam bloody thing that happened...

So it above it a story for sat mini concert which i waited so long to get the tixs on last last sat from 8+ in the morning till 6...but time sure fly fast there! but acutally i entered into a state of depression after that...wondering what i was doing is really what i wanted... yes i really wanted to see S.H.E but the waiting time let me feel that i am throwing my youths away...it maybe due to because b4 the queueing for the mini concert tix i am already queueing for a stupid album cover stuffs which S.H.E is not there same as queueing for the tixs...but the tix worth million times more then the cover sia...the queueing for cover is bai ci de loh..i and lun and khai then waited for 5 to 6 hours just to get a single cover? When people can buy on that day at the booth and they can get it? Oh craps craps and more craps...some people said the exchanging for album cover is to get more people to come for a few events before the exchanging session starts...if it is so they are jsut dam fk up...here is a link to the forum about fans complaining : http://www.she-forum.sg/forum/viewtopic.php?t=11288&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=0&sid=ca6cb3c07fc67a410f82c20dcdeb5ef0
Nvm about it...sunday one was more worst...and i never would have it i would be complaining about it...i keep telling myself the event at sunday was ok le lah till i read a tread on the S.H.E forum....complaining about the autograph session on how sucky it was...and there people start to throw in whatever they hate on the event into the tread...and i realise how stupid and dumb organising it had be....I stay in hougang went down all the way to the other side of the island, wake up early at 9 and reach at 11+...guess what? 11+ is early? They autograph session start at 2pm! As a result people start to queue overnight...and what more is that the venue is acutally outside a garden on the lvl 4 of IMM there? and they restrict other space ard it and permitting only a small tent for about 500+ fans when there is over 4k+ fans in sg? so how? the rest of the fans got to wait at the warehouse in lvl 5....it was not S.H.E fault but the organising party that is just sucky...and again they put up a booth selling album gibing out the COVER AGAIN! ccb....see liao also sian knn....have they ever thought of those who went to get and queued over hours and hours under the hot sun and stuffy carpark? Just dumb and stupid sia they all...
and because i queued all the way to the warehouse...i could not hear them sing..
S.H.E was rather tired Hebe acutally rest her head on the table during the break time...alot of people say Ella was looking very tired...but i think still ok lah...and they did what they promise by signning to each and every last person...so nice of them when they are sick and tired...

alright enough of the complains and whinning and fun stuffs of S.H.E! Today pon C-math 1st hr lesson as i was to tired but acutally i could be only 15mins late...but the 72 bus acutally take 1 hr to drive me there....from hougang to yio chu kang....reason is because there is a accident and a car hit a cyclist and unfortunely the cyclist is dead...from what i heard from my classmate as i did not see it myself...only know there is a long jam on the way there..then after reaching then i know there is a "pop-quiz" for html for javascript then i say siao liao i din bring textbook to study and somemore its a open book lol so i think i failed the html quiz 5% beautifully but acutally alot of people from other class which i see also donno how to do or rather cant find answer in the textbook and some even leave blank...but what come after the 10 min pop quiz is that this was the most enjoyable scott jones's lecture thinking i had been skipping his lecture for like so many many weeks lol...we were having a fun game in the lecture hall...who was the fastest to stand up and anwer will get a point and the class with most points get to win plenty of sweets and snacks and good fortune by scott jones??? LOL when start other class was answering so hiong then i tell meng hua he spam me answer then i help the class answer lol donno what is wrong with me...then got 2 or 3 points forgotten le then meng hua and ren qi tag team answer from side side of the hall LOL so firece sia...then as on par with class 5 lol which is
Samantha class and she was answering the qns also ...she is chio man i sld say...scare later she got a feud with our class lol! but because it was a par so mr scott ask meng hua the top scorer of our class and samantha class de donno who a big chap to a dual of qns LOL but in the end it was still a draw and the baggy of stuffs was spit by we two classes LOL

so i guess i stopped here le bah write so long le lol...acutally still have much to say but i left it unsaid atm bah.

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Monday, July 30, 2007

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Stress arh... for the next 2 mths i will be stress like hell...ytd gotta back my marketing paper...dam sad, out of 22, 9 failed, out of 9 who failed i am one of them...haiy..my heart was shattered when i saw the paper...my marketing project group only i failed it..22/50. 3 more marks to it....it is not i din study or what but it is the qns that acutally cause me to lose so many marks...marketing bases i go write marketing segmentation...omg ...this qns 15 marks i got zero...dam...my mcq was nicely done with 18/20 and it was acutally my section B that had cause it to lost marks.....well what can i say? This is the first paper that i failed in nyp and why must it de a business paper when i wanted to learn business so much? DAMMIT!! Really i was really sian dao..haiy...suan le hope i can get through it with our project so i won have to retake the module...

Then today java test....got abit like trick dao loh....the qns was acutally somehow quite diff from what we are practicing in the tutorial loh...but heng i manage to get my 1st to program up and running ...hope nothing wrong....but i got a feeling i save program 2 over program 1..sian if that is the case i am dead...not i donno how to do but is save wrong....then my pesudocode anyhow do..lol then circle i go circle 2 in the qns part 2 ...haiy....then bonus marks i don even know how to do..lol only know how to put the FOR there then finish lol....sian arh!!!

But acutally i think i am still alright le bah...at least i can get my programs up and running whereas some of my classmate could not acutally compile and run...and i do feel proud of myself as it was the 1st time i can acutally run and compile on my own without anyone help!! HAHAS i am nuts! Anyway i do hope those who are weaker will be able to catch up and don have to retake the module...

lastly....feel so sad i miss the "live earth"... wanna watch Ai Otsuka live on tv but i am not free...sian...could only watch one of the song she sing on youtube...and she is very beautiful !!!
Then i saw a short clip people cut out on ai otsuka de movie...lol he go cut out the part when aiotsuka ask for a hotdog bun! LOL so FUNNY! hahas don mind me...think i am mad due to this few days stress..lol

well i guess that is all hope i can get pass this sem and go on...i don want to lag behind!!!

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Friday, July 13, 2007

Well...happened to come upon mishy videos and her blog again, have quite a deep impression on her as he stirred up quite a storm in youtube last year 2006, well her name is Michelle sometime call as mishy or cutiemish.





She is really quite a outstanding and special person i should say, why do i said that? Because she acutally did something outstanding which among million or billion or trillion of people does not do, she made quite alot of videos and imitading and sing toward her webcam...well she is a asian but with a heavy british accent...well here are some of her pictures



























hahahas she is a actress but in fact her dream is to be a model...but well her height just pull her down, from what she said from her blog...





Just to let you view her profile and her videos made by her: http://www.youtube.com/user/cutiemish



well alot of people leave lots and lots and lots of comments on her...lol some are good and some are bad depending how you rate her after you have watch her videos... but honestly i really think she is not bitchy or slutty or trying to create a clown out of her but instead i like her attitude the way which no one acutally do the same as her, treating this as her hobby.



She doesn't base herself on cosmetics, nudity, etc. Sometimes - on purpose - she tries even to appear "ugly" : all her charm she bases exclusively on winning natural ways, on an extraordinary taste for music, on body gesticulation elegance, on personal magnetism. well this part was extracted from an article http://madaboutasia.blogspot.com/2006/10/another-cutiemish-article.html but i totally agree with what is written in it!

Hmm...the newpapers in british acutally feature her in it and leaving comments about her...






Anyway i just find this stuffs very interesting thats why i share with you all... and not alot of people have the courage to show what they wanna express and post it to let the people ard the world to view her masterpiece...if have a chance i really wish i can get to meet her! =p
Do take a look at her videos!

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Friday, July 13, 2007

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Last saturday went for Corrine birthday with daphne and weiqi....met 3 + at compass, had a rush in preparing present for Corrine lol and Corrine reminding weiqi not to be late lol. After that take a lift from Corrine mother van outside ya koon to yio chu kang for this birthday venue...on the van met ziyi then had some chat before reaching
then reach le her father set up for Karaoke lol then Corrine went into frenzy in singing...jumping on the sofa and sing...hahas so funny...sing sing then eat buffet ....after that keep listening to other people singing lol...then ownself din sing cos very ps...then janice,xiao wei and mabel came...afterwhile they left b4 cutting cake lol...then me wq and dap went to the swimming pool to pao jiao..then ziyi came and join us...after a while we went up to cut cake and took some photos and..chat and chat then because no more drinks liao i end up drinking beer LOL...after that abit blur le but not drunk...donno why lol...almost 10+ Corrine brother in law gib us a ride out to the bus stop and ziyi meet her friend donno go where then the rest of us went for supper...as i was blur because night plus some drip of beer i accidently buy one bowl of vegatarian noodles lol....but nvm get one rojak and we took a cab home...Corrine was so happy that day...its was her 07/07/07 birthday and lots of GIFTS!!! Envy her!

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Celebrate Samantha's birthday last sunday, then watch "tranformers", well i can say its really a cool show and nice...just that the actions are too close in lol then was like seeing a batch of metals hugging each other lol....then after that buy cakes for her then we all go home le...but but ..the story for that day does not end here either .... me, han wen, shili and jason later decided to take a cab home ...and we acutally could not get a single till 12+....3 hrs of waiting.....ARGHS!

Monday had presentation for com skill....lol everyone was like having script to read while i just bomb out from my brain...then after that realise i miss out alot of stuffs that i forgotten to said and maybe due to nervousness...

This week and next week onwards i will be darn busy as projects and exams are all coming in...real stress....IT is hard to study yah....they said poly easy life well....easier then secondary?....hahas but still hard lah....

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Sunday, July 01, 2007



Went to Mutt and mittens today...well of so many times that i went to i guess today is quite a nightmare for me yah.


Went with weichong, weiqi, quyun and meifang...reached at ard 9+ then wash the cages as usual then boon told us to walk the dog...then i go and walk saddis and a lady told me not to walk him as he is still not that tame...well ok then i put him back and took daddy out...then the rest of daddy's family was taken by the weichong they all...then walk walk walk to the vending machine met Cohen(donno how to spell his name) and his wife, they said wanna gib them a jab except daddy so i leave daddy to weiqi care and i went back to get blacky out...well daddy was inside a garden and black was outside...weiqi at first tot daddy like black cos daddy ran toward blacky when i take her out...then when waiting the Q for jab weiqi bring daddy out of the garden...and guess what to my horror both bark and daddy the bigger doggy acutally bite onto blacky leg...even worse...because blacky was leashed by me and as soon as i heard they barked i tried to pull blacky away but by the time i pull blacky legs was already caught by daddy tight teeth...which means there is two impacts at the neck and the leg then i was like OMG !... It truely shock me and weiqi when we saw it and blacky was chua sai when daddy bite her...then the shit got onto me... lol abit only lah then blacky substain a bite mark and bleed a little...then the crew told me its ok...well i hope so bah...then i go clean myself up and don dare enter the doggy corner to help so me and the rest went to the cats corner.


Guess what i found a Garfield which acutally do something that others cats don do it...lol and i pose with him lol!
After M&M, weichong went for work, then left meifang,weiqi, quyun and me so we went to the big Giant to shop...i bought nothing and the girls bought some...had some ice-cream after the shoppy and then we walk back to the bus and home sweet home...tired day

Tomorrow will be better i guess~
Sunday, July 01, 2007