Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Just have a few tension quarrel with a friend...not that i wanna scold in the 1st place..but i was typing and i need to type out in cap and vulgar to show that i don really feel good about. Anw i hope he understand that i am not lecturig him...i am going to say sry here for the vulgar in the 1st place but as a friend then i will say out...so hope it can be understand.......
Anw just gone for a interview on a job at VTB building as a promoter with weiqi and yunting ... sian the person said mostly she will use me but need to wait 2 weeks more...but next week O lvl result is coming out le...and i am really scare about it and cannot fulfill our agreement on the job...if i do really ge into poly...then i could go for the job 100% full time...so stress .. i donno why..
Am i suffering from mental problem? i feel so problematic ..now as i am typing my tears are coming out again same as last time ..why? Jobs? studies? friends? Family? ...this holiday i just cannot hold on any longer le...plus the last stage of getting result is coming le..i feel so much peer pressure...i am really afraid of the result ....my heart have a really heavy rock which i cannot gt rid of...it weight tons..i am so sad ...so depress...no more vex like last time but more saddening then before...so sad ..sad till i donno how to write on...