Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Well, after lots and lots of busy weeks i am finally able to come back to blog again. There is so much so much and so much that i wanna say. Firstly i have to say something to my beloved butter aka guinea pig that i love you so much and forever in my heart. On the day that you left and went back to god we were all crying over it. Never would i thought that you are so thoughtful to us, greatful to you. Next time if you wanna go then just go ok? Dont hang on there till the light are out then you leave in slience, you make us feel so hurt and letting you down, we were just closing the light thinking you will have a good rest after the medi. But in fact you left us, that night we sit by your side and cry through. Butter hope you rest in peace, you are always in our heart...
Above is a message for my butter, pls don mind me, i am so sad and depress over his dead. That night i can say its was really my lowest point in life. He acutally hang on while breathing so diffcult just to stay till the light are out then he left on slience, when we open the light he was already motionless, i tried to hold back my tears but i could not. Blame it on me not taking him to see the vet early, so guilty for the rest of my life. As a hay lover, Butter acutally hold on a stalk of hay in his mouth before he goes....he had been so sick till that he could not eat and before he go he hold on a stalk of hay so strongly in his mouth. I know i know...he could not eat it down anymore because of his stomach...yet he hold onto his fav hay....too sad to write on...
May God Watch Over you
Beloved Butter
Back to some unrelated topics, finally on my term break, i wanted to say so much that i am so happy that i finally could have a break....last time a 2 weeks break was like so little to me...but somehow this time it is so long and good which i feel...maybe is because i am really too busy and keep returning home late...
One more stuffs is that i am quiting my archery, does not was to be train and pay the seniors money for them to train me..thats all simple.
Somehow i felt that i had changed alot...i could not help from changing my char....but i just know something changed...and that is towards bad....not the old same Jeremy i use to joke alot nowadays...i just could not explain how and why....
Seem like i lost something on the way and i just could not find it back and that is not just 1 but more....
My second time of not having any sales on my job happen and haiy...i was like not trying my best...
Donno what to say on...take one step slowly at a time bah...hope the new Jeremy you all can get use to it ......
