Monday, December 03, 2007
Oh..how nice, cant get into slp now. Its 12.37 am monday and guess what? I'm having school in 8 hours time. So much stuffs on my head which i cant get rid off, been so lost now.
Right now i am offically on medication for my incureable disease now, and my flu and asthma is almost done torturing with me and now come my crown(the big and main tooth toward the end of the jaw) aching, and i went to see my dentist and she said the inner part or rather the center part of the crown had decay almost to the nerve inside my gum and it was because i did not put braces when i was young so the other tooth block it from brushing it. ok now how great, i tot she will help me cover up the hole but in fact she say covering could not help and need to do a root canal thereby puting a fake crown or whatever inorder to save my tooth. well i am fine with it but guess what? It cost me 1.2k to 1.6k and as you all know i'm still a student right now and i dont want to waste anymore of my family funds. It make me feel so bad. Eversince this year i had already use up ard 2K for my poly fee and another 2K for my laptop, then when i went to Tan tock seng for diagnose for my disease each trip waste me 30 - 50 and nothing comes out. By the time i get to Candam clinic it cost my aunt 125 dollar just for consultaion, the second time i went back was 70 and i still need to keep going back to get my medication done. Although i know all this money was not from me but i just don want to waste much more money on me already!
I think i had been trying to be strong and a sickless child, and that is the way i am but just my sis said something that hurts me. "Dont think because you are sick so you can give me attitude". I'm not angry but just disappointed, I did not even gib the pale look on my face in the 1st place and there she is attacking my weakest point. I really don want to be seen as a child who is full of illness, i want fun activites thats why i try everything.
Right now my gum in the upper jaw keep bleeding bit by bit as it swell from the injection ytd, what concern me now is that sld i continue the session with my dental?
the full sessions goes up to max 1.6k and now i am halfway through, i had already paid 300+ and my mother acutally want me to pluck it out but i don really know will it grow back anot as i am still young if it do grow back i don mind it, but if not it will affect me. the other part is that i am afraid that ahh...i don want to bother writing it down. I'll never wanted to hate myself nor my parent for the sick body of mine.
For intero. I must really said a deep sorry to Jean tay and Alvin as they had been short handed on work and i am unable to make it to work due to appointment here and there during weekend but i truly hope to go back and help once i feel better.
