Thursday, May 29, 2008
This Tuesday was a particularly sad day for me, reason is cuz i can say i failed my cpp project and fail in acutal fact is that it is hard but just i did not try hard enough for it, what my lecturer said was correct and she told me to present to her next week for 1 more chance. At the moment i was angry but not angry with her and its me. On the way back home i think alot and lots of stuffs and up till now still have alot of stuffs that flashes through my brain including what i did in the pass from baby till now, lots of embrassing and disgrace stuffs, sad moments. I would not really want to go back to the lazy and academic weak Jeremy. Just in case many of you dont know, i was acutally a very lazy and never think about others when i was young around kindergarden to lower primary, my academic was horribly weak and i almost drop to EM3 but lucky it was my aunt who force and help me out and i climb to EM2. At that period i know my primary sch have weak students but neither did i think myself as one of them and till one day my form teacher told me how weak i was and realise how bad the situation is but still i blindly make it through to PSLE and by mere little hardworking efforts i got to Normal academic, up till O level that day i really realise what i am doing and i had been trying to maintain it, before getting of Os result i was told how many NA students could not really make it to poly including my family and i was real worried but in the end the result of i had gotta was more then what i want. It maybe low for some of you but it is a god send gift to me. Cuz i broke something my family did not. Of cuz if i am not in NA i would not have change so much in my personally, character, work and knowing all my great friends. I truely think i am real lucky to be in the clique and the process of how i grow up as a teenager was so important and the path that i took was acutally right for me.
I always thought i am so involve in so many things and at the same time not so involving. Be it in anyway. This few days things just flashes through my head again and again keep thinking and thinking
I wonder did i try hard enough or did i just say and not do it or it is out of my means?
all i can say is that i am trying and doing, trying and doing, trying and doing..
